Wedding fever

Love is a friendship set to music.--E. Joseph Cossman
Love is a fruit in season at all times, and within reach of every hand.--Mother Teresa
Love is all you need.--Paul McCartney

Wedding fever!
Wedding fever!
Wedding fever!
Wedding fever!

Tomorrow is the wedding lo… after months of what to do what to do… tomorrow is the will do day… haha~
Its amazing that my brother and ta sao have been together for more than ten years…

Spent the morning cleaning up the house and packing stuff away for throwing and otherwise… for a sentimental person like me… it is very tough to throw away things especially if they have gone back a long way with me… for other things, it’s a no-brainer…
-hysterical laughter-

Have to start packing for the all-nighter tomorrow… making a list of what to put in my over-night bag… and plan what I am going to do on Sunday before hand. If not, sure kan-chiong until I really go mental…
Saturday will be a rush-rush day…
I am so going to take pictures like crazy… I would be alienating myself if I didn’t…
-loud hysterical laughter-

I have faith that all the problems will be ironed out by tomorrow… because in the end, everything will be ok… and if things are not alright, it’s not the end ^-^
Must exercise my faith!
-bounces all over the house-

Yang Mui commented yesterday that by the time I get my blackbelt I will have a shrine to TKD in my room/house.
I now consider the possibility of that happening… as it is, my room is already filled with my training stuff and I plan to add more things to my room… just have to go to Liang Seng and see what I feel like getting for my collection…
-psychotic hysterical laughter-

Me thinks me had better end here… I shall return with more when the ‘event’ is over.

YAAMMMM SSSEEEENNNNNGGGGG!!!!
Practice practice first...
Wahahahaa~
^-^

Sorry ah Cat!

The horse one cannot have always has a fault.
Shared joy is doubled joy.
He who fears finds a way out.

Wah sian lor… computer lost all my files due to God-know-what… could be virus or hacker… just donno what it is… I donno how to find out anyway… it’s just a total bitch to lose all my files… now have to start from the ground up … sianz~
But I’ve learnt some important things from this problem… hopefully I don forget the lessons learnt…

As a direct result of the computer problem, I was kinda late for Micro class… bleah… hate being late x.xlll
Training was not bad… just have to heal my injuries before I can get more out of training… gah… hate being injured as well man~

Tuesday’s full day at school was a close shave… I fell asleep on the bus on the way to school (I got such a shock when I woke up that I got off at the wrong bus stop -.-lll) fell asleep before the POA lecture… that kind of kept me awake during the rest of the POA lecture… but it was kind of hard to get info in considering the fact that I know close to zilch about the subject although I have been in every single lecture… crap… I need HELP for that module xia~
The consequence of not enough sleep was that I fell asleep on the way home as well… almost missed my bus stop … x.xlll
Key word: Almost.
Heng ah~

Wednesday was spent lacing around the house … just trying to avoid doing work… bad Sharon! Bad Sharon!
Went for training at the SIM grounds… damn miss training xia… can forget about all my problems and just whack targets :D
We had more complicated kicks and sparring.
I went up against Cat… gruesome match xia… good thing I brought my sparring guards along … if not there would have been more injuries… I whacked her jaw and my feet are now bruised until I donno if I can wear shoes… Sorry about the injuries Cat!
Continued smacking targets at the CC… was not exactly satisfied with my performance… mostly due to my bruises so was not able to go all out and ‘kill’ the targets… but I was satisfied with my 360’s… they were nice~
Looking forward to class on Sunday… considering that there will not be any training at SIM next week, I think I will piah for the CC sessions to make up for the lack of TKD in the week…

Thursday morning was spent waiting for the afternoon to roll around… I was on time for Macro lecture! Heehee…
Had a hard time walking around because of my bruises… but I am sure I will be fine… just really worried about Cat.
Argh… sorry ah Cat!!!!
I was awake for the macro lecture and things got into my skull…so I guess that is a good thing… Mr. Seet ended the lecture early and so i got to eat my dinner real early… Yang Mui joined me in Megabites while waiting for her mom to msg her and the other yang… haha…
Went for OT lecture … it was to be a make-up for the lecture which we will be missing next Tuesday … felt more like morning time… haha… but then I realize after a while that it was already reaching 9pm… haha…
I find the radical portions more interesting than the ASM models… they add colour to the dull areas… more reasons to like the subject… that is definitely a good thing! :D
Braved the pouring rain to get home…my clothes were all wet… brings to mind the phrase: “I don’t like to swim in the rain because I don’t like to get wet.”
-loud hysterical laughter-

The wedding’s tomorrow… wow… time flies…
Will be getting my nails done with Mummy later at Kovan but have to clear my stuff for Saturday before we go out… so heart pain to throw my stuff away… but I don think I have much of a choice… might as well do it now if not will have a hard time when we move house… honestly… everything is moving so damn fast its really surreal…
Can I have time stop for a while so I can take stock?
-falls deep in thought-

Rain, rain, go away
Come again another day
…
(forgot the rest of the song -.-lll)

Travis - Why does it always rain on me?

I can't sleep tonight
Everybody saying everything's alright
Still I can't close my eyes
I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning
I can't stand myself
I'm being held up by invisble men
Still life on a shelf when
I got my mind on something else
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
It's so cold
I can't sleep tonight
Everybody saying everything's alright
Still I can't close my eyes
I'm seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I can't avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
It's so cold
Why does it always rain on me?
Why does it always rain on...

Pretty catchy song… sang it while it was raining just now… haha…

More later I guess…
Looking forward to being girlie… wow… I can’t believe I said that…
Must be the time… hahaha
Later~
^-^

What the hell?!

My computer just went nuts on me this morning.
I've lost all the files i had in the computer.
These range from my mp3s to my school work to my pictures which i have been compiling over the last goodness knows how many months... and my videos!!!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!
As i go along trying to find some semblence of normalcy i find that i am missing more and more things from the computer.
-tears hair out-
Of all things and times... it had to happen this week right?!
WHY ME!?!??!
WHY NOW?!?!
WHY THIS!?!?!?!
Want to add more stuff to the mud pie?
My knees are hurting like crazy, my wrist has been injured for more than 3 weeks and my head has been throbbing since last night!
I've got a school assignment to do, files concerning the SIM TKD Club which i lost and school to attend later...

Only one word can express my current emotions: FUCK!

HOW?!?!?!

Now i am trying to remind myself that:
If everything is not alright, it is not the end.
In the end everything will be alright...
Right?

FloatinG towards KoreA

The surest way to remain poor is to be an honest man.
The tongue is more to be feared than the sword.
When you live next to the cemetery you cannot weep for everyone.
When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that when you die, the world cries and you rejoice.

Greetings~
The last time I posted an entry… it was a Saturday…. Let’s see what happened in my world since that day ya?

Sunday – Went for second service after not attending for about 2-3 months… to tell you the truth, I wasn’t really looking forward to it… oh well… this Sunday is just 2 days away… wonder how it is going to go… coz I need to do shopping…
Went for training in the afternoon but I did not do much training at all. Ended up writing proposal to the CC regarding the SPEX competition…

Monday – Micro lecture and kicking targets at the SIM grounds.
The LT was so freaking cold xia~
But the lecture was good, I enjoy sitting next to Charis, she makes me push my brain to think more, rather than just accepting facts and just absorbing things into my grey matter…
-hysterical laughter-
Mr. Chow was late for class due to all his last minute preparations for the trip to Korea, so I took the class in warm up… I need to work on my instructing skills… the kicking sets for the day whacked most of us out… some how I gotta find time to start jogging … I think if I ever am able to start jogging and add that to my 4 sessions of training, I would improve quite a bit… key word: think.

Tuesday – I made it through the marathon of lectures, but crashed out during cell group.
I did not knock out during the POA lecture! That is definitely something to give praises to God for… now all I need to do is get the rest of the readings done -.-lll
Aiya… can do it lah… as long as I put my head to it right?
Cell was ok… but I was kind of there and yet not there… smell what I’m cooking?
Brain kanna overloaded by school and weak from the whole day of running around…

Wednesday – tried studying for the macro test. Key word: tried. Went to train at the SIM grounds. Took the class with Hakim.
We taught the lower belts the basics.
I have much to learn and let go.
-runs mad around the house-
I was planning to leave for the CC by 7.45pm at the latest but I ended up leaving SIM at 8.30pm.
Was very willing to take a cab all the way down to the CC, which would have cost me a hole in my pocket, but the taxis were all on the other side of the road and the others which did turn up all got taken by people further up the road -.-lll
Ended up taking bus and switching to a taxi from there… it cost less… thank goodness…but the irritating thing was that when I reached the CC, I found out that they cancelled class >.Those who were there took out the sparring equipment and had a personal training session of their own.
I joined in but now I am injured … basket!
Now I have to take that anger, bottle it up and unleash it on the target the next time I put on my gi.
-evil laughter-
-louder evil laughter-

Thursday – Macro lecture and test plus work day.
I tried to do the test. Key work: tried.
Wrote and drew graphs pertaining to consumption when the question was on investment. O.olll
Yes, I shall put in more effort the next time ok?
The test ended early, so I made for home to have dinner before heading out again for work.
The kids really tested my patience last night… was very close to whacking all of them with a combination of kicks… haiyo~

So much for going to Korea… argh~!
-starts tearing hair out-
I want to experience snow before I turn 21, but since that birthday is less than 3 months away, that would be wishful thinking eh?
-pulls more hair out-

Yangmui: “moolah sharon, it's moolah..mula looks so wrong..”
Joshy: “yangmui>haha its ok lar..at least she din say something like mullah mahh”
My world, my rules, my lingo…
-loud hysterical laughter-
as long as you understand what I talking about can liao… haha~
-continues with the loud hysterical laughter-

Heya Marpig!
How’s your headache?
You feeling better now?
Get well soon ya?
-hugs-

Cheers~
^-^

Mostly Craig David

The sea has an enormous thirst and an insatiable appetite.
The silent dog is the first to bite.
The smallest thing outlives the human being.
The sun will set without thy assistance.

My Friday was spent out with TKM walking around Orchard road.
We got caught in the rain, ran into crowds and spent a ton of money.
From Wisma to Far East Plaza to Centre Point.
Bought blouses from Zara, a skirt from Chomel and 2 pairs of shoes from Lucky Plaza.
Woohoo~
Finally found those elusive silver heels!
Yeah!
-bounces around the house-
Now all that’s left is accessories and getting my nails done… more money going to go ‘bye-bye’ -.-lll
I have to admit that shopping is really a nice experience… especially if you have the ‘mula’ aka *ca-ching* to throw around as and when you see something that really fits you. ;)
Wearing a good pair of shoes to go shopping is also very important.
I decided to break out my brand new pair of Everbest heels to wear to town and what happened?
Not only did the shoes give me blisters on both feet, the size of 5 cent coins, but they died on me while we were walking down Orchard… they literally fell apart!
Argh~
That is the reason why I had to get two pairs of shoes instead of just the one we found in Lucky Plaza…
-sigh-
All that money just for another pair of shoes which could have been avoided… but still… those slip-ons are extremely comfortable… heh…

We ate dinner out and returned home satisfied.
Needless to say, my arms were very tired from carrying all the clothes and shoes… the price you pay eh?

Kimi,
Sorry about the miscommunication ah…
How was your trip to Suntec?

Today’s morning was spent at work and for once in a long while, I got to spend my afternoon at home.
What bliss~
Even managed to get some sleeping and reading done! Heh… have to get as much sleep as possible man… if not I will be walking around like a zombie …and acting like one during trainings… no no no no no… don think I want that… so have to sleep and rest my mind… like that then also can study more efficiently… at least I hope so… hah…

I like that new song by Fort Minor… Mike Shinoda… all the interesting beats and recurring notes… way cool~

Fort Minor Lyrics - Believe Me
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to
Believe me
But I
Won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now
Believe me
Yo
I don't wanna be the one to blame you
Like fun and games
Keep playin' 'em
I'm just sayin-
Think back then
We was like one in the same
On the right track
But I was on the wrong train
It's like that
Now you gotta face the pain
And the devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain
Like a maze
You can never escape
The rain
Every damn day's the same shade of grey
Hey
I used to have a little bit of a plan
Use ta'
Have a concept of where I stand
But that concept slipped right outta my hand
And now
I don't really even know who I am
Yo
What do I have to say
Maybe I should do
What I have to do to break free
'N whatever happens to you
We'll see
But it's not gonna happen with me
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to
Believe me
But I
Won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now
Believe me
Back then
I thought you were just like me
Somebody who could see all the pain I see
But you
Proved to me unintentionally
That you would self destruct eventually
Now I'm thinkin' like the mistake I made doesn't hurt
But its not gonna work
'Cause it's really much worse
Than I thought
I wished you were something you were not
And now this guilt is really all that I got
You turn your back
And walk away in shame
All you got
Is a memory 'a pain
Nothin' makes sense
You jus' stare at the ground
I hear your voice in my head
When no one else is around
So what do I have to say
Maybe I should do
What I have to do
To break free
Man
'N whatever happens to you
We'll see
But it's not gonna happen with me
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to
Believe me
But I
Won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now
Believe me
Yeah!
I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to
Believe me
But I
Won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now
Believe me
I will do what I have to do
You're on your own now
Believe me
Whatever happens to you
You're on your own now
Believe me
What do I have to say
You're on your own now
Believe me
Its not gonna happen to me
You're on your own now
Believe me
Yeah!


Craig David…
-migumi laughter-
he’s got his own unique song style… once you hear the opening chords of any of his sons you confirm will know its his voice your going to hear…

Craig David – Fill me in

I've got somethin' to say, got somethin' to say
All right (Can you fill me in?) Come on
Can you fill me in? (Watcha want, watcha want me to do baby?)
Can you fill me in? (Let's talk 'bout it, check it out)

I was checkin' this girl next door when her parents went out
She'd phone say "hey boy, come on right around"
So I knock at the door, you were standin' with a bottle of red wine, ready to pour
Dressed in long black satin laced to the floor
So I went in then, we sat down start kissin', caressin'
Told me 'bout jacuzzi sounded interestin' so, we jumped right in
All calls diverted to answerphone
Please leave a message after the tone
I mean me & her parents were kinda cool
But they were the fine line between me & you
We were just doin' thingz young people in love do
Parents tryin' to find out what we were up to sayin'

Why were you creepin' 'round late last night?
Why could I see two shadowz movin' in yo bedroom light?
Now you're dressed in black, when I left you were dressed in white
Can you fill me in?
Calls diverted to answerphone
Red wine bottle half the contents gone
Midnight return jacuzzi turned on
Can you fill me in? (It's another one, it's another one)

Whenever the coast was clear & she'd ask me to come out
I'd say "hey girl, come on right around"
So she knocked at the door, I was standin' with the keys in my hand to the four by four.
Jumped in my ride checkin' that nobody saw
The club we went in, we got down bounce bounce to the rhythm
Saw it was early mornin' thought we'd better be leavin'
So I gave you my jacket for you to hold
Told you to wear it 'cos you felt cold
I mean me & her didn't mean to break the rules
I weren't tryin' to play yo mum & dad for fools
We were just doin' thingz young people in love do
Parents tryin' to find out what we were up to sayin'

Why can't you keep your promises no more?
Sayin' you'll be home by 12 come strollin' in at 4
Out with the girlz but leavin' with the boy next door
Can you fill me in?
Wearin' a jacket whose property?
Said you'd been queuin' for a taxi
But you left all your money on the tv
Can you fill me in?

All they seem to do
Is be checkin' up on you baby
Watchin' our every move
Think someday they might approve maybe..


Craig David – Walking away

I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
Sometimes some people get me wrong, when it's something I've said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun, that's why you turn and run
But now I truly realise, some people don't wanna compromise
Well, I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies, and
Well I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well, I'm so tired baby
Things you say, you're driving me away
Whispers in the powder room baby, don't listen to the games they play
Girl I thought you'd realize, I'm not like them other guys
Cause I saw them with my own eyes, you should've been more wise and
Well I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away


Craig David – World filled with love

Saw some pictures in the paper,
of a girl I'd met the day before.
I couldn't believe that hours later,
I had reporters knockin at my door,
But I used to dream about,
the life I'm living now and,
I didn't think I'd miss those things from the past,
and I'm not afraid of leaving,
or letting go of what I had,
cause I realize that now there's no turning back.

(Chorus)
Cause I'm a young heart living in a world filled with love,
so when tear drops fall from me like rain from above,
I can brush my troubles away,
know that deep down inside,
I've got sun shinin in my life.

(Verse)
I used to think I could get better,
my girlfriends always used to get me wrong.
Some just sent messages, love letters,
but those kinda feelings never lasted long.
Cause now the only love I find's within a castle made of sand,
and when the tide goes out it's swept away.
Though I got my peace of mind,
and time is firmly on my side,
so through the battles I can safely say...

(Chorus)
That I'm a young heart living in a world filled with love,
so when tear drops fall from me like rain from above,
I can brush my troubles away,
know that deep down inside,
I've got sun shinin in my life.

(Music Break)

(Chorus)
Cause I mean I'm caught living in a world filled with love,
so when tear drops fall from me like rain from above,
I can brush my troubles away,
know that deep down inside,
I've got sun shinin in my life.
I'm caught living in a world filled with love,
so when tear drops fall from me like rain from above,
I can brush my troubles away,
know that deep down inside,
I've got sun shinin in my life.


Craig David - You Don't Miss Your Water ('Til the Well Runs Dry) Lyrics

As I sail with you across the finest oceans
On our way to find the key to our emotions
Together we will move the clouds to brighter days
Some people question what I say
Tried to break up you and me
But I know this love between us is growing stronger
You can call me whenever from wherever
Just remember that
I'll be there
Through all the stormy weather
Us break up never
No we'll be together
Forever

[Chorus:]
You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry
But I believe so strongly in you and I
Can somebody answer me the question why
You don't miss your water til the well runs dry

As I close my eyes
Sit back while reminiscing
Of when we used to fuss and fight but end up kissing
There may be sad and painful times along the way
But in my heart you'll always be everything and more to me
For I know this love between us is growing stronger
You can call me whenever from wherever
Just remember that
I'll be there
Through all the stormy weather
Us break up never
No we'll be together
Forever

[Chorus]

For you are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
Girl you know that you
You are always
You are always on my mind
You are always forever

[Chorus]

You don't miss your water girl no
But I believe so strongly in you and I yeah
Can somebody answer me the question why
Cause you don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry yeah listen
If you ever get the feeling
You wanna play around starting cheating, remember
You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MARVIN!!!!
Hope you had a good day :)

Song overload… now to get on to some reading…
Everyday I sing… ladida~
^-^

Missing

The raggy colt often made a powerful horse..
The reverse side also has a reverse side.
The right man comes at the right time.
The road to a friend's house is never long.

Last night’s double training was very testing on my stamina… it just makes me want to train even more…
SIM training was very much like Monday’s session but we did not do patterns.
We had sparring instead!
-evil laughter-
The main match was between Hakim and Sean.
Wah!!!!
‘Pay-per-view’ xia!~

Training at the CC was rather quiet coz the kids are having exams and thus do not turn up, but since Wednesdays are more for Senior belters, we all still had to piah… heh… try guessing how tired I was when I finally got home…

I was EARLY for the Macro lecture today!
-pumps fists into the air-
Woohoo~!
Work wasn’t all that bad though my timesheets have gone missing… Argh… how to get paid like that?!

Met James, aka on half of the SRJC ‘twin-towers’, on the way home from work.
He surprised me when he told me that he is happy in doing his NS.
That’s something new to my ears…

There was this one day, last year in March, when I felt so god damn lousy, down-trodden and depressed that I wanted to die.
I guess I will be scarred for life.
The pain keeps coming back … more and more often now… F**K!
Some of my inner thoughts are captured in the following song…

Evanescence - Missing

Please, please forgive me,
But I won’t be home again.
Maybe someday you’ll have woke up,
And, barely conscious, you’ll say to no one:
"isn’t something missing? "

You won’t cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t someone missing me?

[chorus]
Even though I’d be sacrificed,
You won’t try for me, not now.
Though I’d die to know you love me,
I’m all alone.
Isn’t someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won’t be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
Shudder deep and cry out:
"isn’t something missing?
Isn’t someone missing me? "

[chorus]

And if I bleed, I’ll bleed,
Knowing you don’t care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t something...

[chorus]


Joshy kor: “sharon>hehe u need to find songs to sing i can help u source and see which u fi mah”
Haha… the auditions over liao lo… wait till next year den I come and ask you ba…. Heh…

TTFN!
^-^

Sing, sing, sing... sing, sing!

The morning is wiser than the evening.
The night rinses what the day has soaped.
The only good thing that comes from the east is the sun.
The palest ink is better than the best memory.
The pine stays green in winter...Wisdom in hardship.

I survived Monday’s lecture but training was tough that day. We all did sets of 4 instead of the usual 3, have a feeling that it will kind of become like that permanently. I don’t mind, considering the fact that IVP is coming up early next year and that this year is zooming past like a freight train.
I had wanted to sleep early but I ended up reading fan-fictions and heh… it kinda rolled onto Tuesday…
Got to school very early on Tuesday and spent time talking to Ying Xian and Cheryl and other people before the start if the OT lecture.
Lunch followed by POA, which saw me nodding off (again!)
Yang Mui had the fortune of catching me knock out… argh~
Thank God I managed to stay awake after the break… sian lor… have to jia bei nu li for that subject … might as well skip all the classes and read the notes on my own… if I keep falling asleep in class, what is the point of being there in the first place?!
-starts tearing hair out-

Went to see the auditions for the Talentime with Yang Mui and a host of other people, had to leave early in order to get home for dinner and to cell group in time.
Wearing contacts for a whole day can and is very tiring on the eyes. Half my eyes were red on Monday when I took them out at home; thankfully it was not that bad yesterday.

Just wondering:
If I were to sign up to sing in the talentime, what song(s) would I sing?
Can I even sing in the first place?
I sing best when I am in church, so I guess that would be an indication that I am not exactly fit for singing in public… hahaha
-wonders for a while-
I guess I would sing ‘Fallen’… its been running through my head for ages anyway so might as well get it out of my system right?
-hysterical laughter-
Den again, talentime is usually made up of nothing but Chinese songs and I suck at Chinese… haha… my memory bank for Chinese songs are limited to Jay, David Tao, S.H.E and maybe some other artists but I can never remember their names or the titles of the songs… hahah … I just know partial lyrics when I hear the tunes on the radio…
-more hysterical laughter-

I’ve always had a soft spot for ‘The Nutcracker ’and‘Swan Lake.
Be it the ballets, the stories or the movies.
Ah, the power of beautiful stories and music combined.
‘Carol of Bells’ is another song which I adore.
I went to Orlando, Florida, in 1999 with TKM and other teachers from my primary school. During that time, Disney World was having the Millennium and Christmas celebrations at the same time. It was a spectacular occasion and wonderful time to be there.
On one of the nights, it was very cold, I whimsically thought that it would snow; I was dreaming obviously… there was a rather odd instrument on the stage. It was built like a piano but with bells of various sizes replacing the strings. The guy who was going to play gave a short introduction about the origins of the thing and then went on to play ‘Carol of Bells’.
The feeling of being there and listening to that song is a once in a life experience.
Maybe, if I am fortunate enough, I will be able to go back there one day… maybe… maybe…

Some cuts go so deep that even the most experienced doctor can not help with the healing.
Time wounds all heals.
How true.

Cheers!
^-^

3-in-1

The light heart lives long.
The man who strikes first admits that his ideas have given out.
The moon is made of a green cheese.
The more the merrier.

Spent very little time in church this morning due to my scheduled boat practice at WWS in the late morning.
Did not get to go out on patrol since there were too many people, so I ended up cleaning the place with Nurul and helping out with the other ‘house-keeping’ chores of the place. Had lots of laughs during the cleaning and tying process. Haha~
Almost did not get to go out on the boat due to some engine problems. Thank goodness the problem got fixed and the practice could then commence.
Felix and Joe did the teaching this time round. You could say that it was pretty stressful at first but got no choice, had to get used to it… me thinks me would have done better if not for my (still) hurting wrist…
Argh~
-runs mad around the house-
Our driving this time was not bad… then again, we’ve always been ok… it’s just that we ‘choke’ when it comes to the test and the tough waters. *bleah*
I wonder if we’re going to have another practice… I hope we have a few more… make that more than a few… a lot… better to be safe than sorry eh? Must make the second time and our money count!
-hysterical laughter-

I helped out with the washing of the boat but had to leave early in order to get to the CC in time for training.
This period usually has a rather low attendance level compared to the norm because of the exams which the primary, secondary and junior college students have.
Oh to be that age once more… o.olll

Training was not bad. Mr. Chow had more in store for us today. We did sets of 4 instead of the usual 3 kick sets. Tiring but fun. Sadly, we did not get to do the full floury of kicks due to time constrain. Haha… I just realize that I taught the biggest group in the class of the day… oh my…
The yellow green pattern was the pattern for the day… still continuing my pursuit of koriyo… wondering how long it will take me to learn this one… and perfect it… hmmm… hahaha…

New week, new stuff to learn, new experiences to go through and share…
Here we go~
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S&J grading

The girl who can't dance says the band can't play.
The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.
The hole is more honorable than the patch.
The innkeeper loves the drunkard, but not for a son-in-law.

Friday was supposed to be my free day.
The day where I don’t have to go to work or to school or to anywhere fixed.
I ended up going to Compass Point with TKM look for shoes and some stuff to add to her wardrobe.
We did grocery shopping at the same time and I tell you, with an injured wrist, it is a touch act to carry the plastic bags. Have to find a particular method of carrying the bags without aggravating the wrist. Hurt man.
When we got home, I packed up a bag and headed for the CC to study with Alfred and Hui Fen.
I was supposed to help him with his A Math, but that boy has very odd study methods.
From looking at how he studies, I guess I have to wake myself up and get my act together coz results don’t fall from the sky. -.-lll

This morning was spent at work.
A particular P6 boy made my blood boil with his attitude and vulgar mouth.
He threw a tantrum when I scolded him.
Situations like these make me feel better about growing old.
Wonder what kind of parents he has to have a character like this.
If I were related to him, I would put him on my knee and beat the life out of his spoilt and bad attitude body.
What is society coming to?
-shakes head-
Went to the library to return and borrow a new set of books before having a quicky lunch and heading for Toa Payoh for the Centralized Black Belt grading. Got caught in the rain most of the way there… thank goodness I had my umbrella with me. ;)
Sian Li and Jill had their gradings today.
The crowd today was almost half of the last time I went to view the grading.
Believe me; it makes a very big difference.
Jason also took his grading for first to second dan.
If anything, he is very zai. I have a very strong feeling that he will pass.
So zai how not to pass?!
Hahaha…
Anyway, back to Sian li and Jill, they did pretty well for themselves so I think passing should not be a problem for them.
I have 9 months to go before my own grading so I have to buck up in my kicks and patterns. Can not throw face ah~
Chi Foong, Ken, Ticha, Ferlyn, Kelvin, Fulin and some other people from SP sat together during the grading. No bad seats compared to the last time. Heh...
Next grading will see Chi Foong, Fulin, Ferlyn and Ticha aiming for their black belts. Ally will also be having her grading in January 2006, but she will be heading for her Poom 3. :)
The whole grading ended at about 5.30pm and we all hung out at BK before I had to make tracks for home and my dinner.

To XXX,
Your an ass
Your a bigger ass for treating me this way
The world does not revolve around you
I'd beat you up, but that would be a waste of my time and energy.

Tomorrow will be filled with church, water and target practice.
Can’t wait!
-bounces off the walls in glee-

Joshy kor: "haha issit Swensens??:) good lar u seem happy...China Suit...Tang Zhuang?Like Bruce Lee?"
Oppz… spelling error… heh… the China suit is more traditional than Bruce Lee… haha…

Kimi: “U're welcome. Hope the treat brightened ur cloudy skies.”
It did! Now for Kushin Bo!!!!
-hysterical laughter-

Enjoy the rest of the weekend people!
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Try that China style~

The church is near but the road is icy; the bar is far away but I'll walk carefully.
The comforter's head never aches.
The darkest hour is that before the dawn.
The day will come when the cow will have use for her tail.

Wow… first week of October is coming to an end… how time flies when one is busy… don mind me… I’m kinda floating from the lack of rest~

Let’s see…BCM celebrated Children’s Day with a mini carnival for the kids on Sunday.
As part of the festivities, teachers and children alike were encouraged to dress up for the occasion.
It looked more like racial harmony day… hahaha… but there were those special ones who came as angels, pirates, police man, mermaids, etc.
I wore Daddy’s China suit. :D
Oh how I love wearing that outfit. Very fun xia… can bounce all over the first and second service in it and what’s more, now that I know taekwondo, I can do proper martial arts moves and make the whole ‘air’ around the suit more zai… hahaha… fun ah~
Now I wonder what they will come up with for next year… hmmm…
I’m hoping to get a traditional Vietnamese suit … I think they are very elegant :)
After the services, I went home for lunch and took a nap before going for training at the CC.

Monday – I was early for the lecture! Woohoo~
Sadly, I sat alone because Charis missed the lecture due to a prior doctor’s appointment.
The LT was so freaking cold man! Next lecture I have to wear thicker clothes…
I understood the words that were coming out of Mr. Seet’s mouth but my hands were kind of slow in copying down the notes due to the temperature of the area… brrrr~
Training was good. As usual :)
Michelle came down to help out, and she gave me some tips for my kicking… so much I have to practice… bring it on! Heh… Did patterns with Hakim (aka the Birthday boy) and taught him chiu-jang.
Went with Mr. Chow, Wei Wen and Kelvin to Whampoh CC, there I taught Kelvin and Wei Wen yu-jang. Heehee… they are very hungry to learn the pattern… hahaha… see who can match me in speed learning…
-hysterical laughter-
I am after all the ‘pattern xue jie’
-more hysterical laughter-

Tuesday morning’s OT lecture was not bad, I just find it a tad hard to focus sometimes because the subject is very dry and has so many IBM elements in it... I will pull through! With God’s help I shall!
POA lecture was a horror for me, at one point during the lecture, I kept nodding off. Felt very bad about it. Really, I did.
I can’t stand it when I nod off during any lecture; even if I don’t like the teacher. In this case, I happen to think that Mr. Mok is a very good lecturer and that makes me feel even worse for almost knocking out during his class. I have a feeling it has to do with the fact that I have OT in the morning and lunch right after that.
OT in itself is rather stifling and my brain gets saturated by the end of the lecture. Add lunch to that and you would have a very sleepy person.
I shall get over this!
With God’s help I shall!
Rushed home and went out to meet Kimi, Winnie and Andrew for dinner at Heartland Mall’s KFC. Thanks for the treat Kimi!
The area which was previously taken up by BK is now being renovated and some Chinese tea-donno-what restaurant of sorts is taking over… all I can say is that it had better be good. Grrr…
Went for cell after dinner, met Germaine Yap on the bus … haha… small Singapore~

Wednesday morning, got up early to pack my stuff and get ready to go to Simei to cut my hair. Spent my time yawning in the chair and looking through magazines… good thing I did not fall asleep while my hair was being cut… if not sure jiat lut xia o.olll
Had lunch with TKM at Swanson’s and then we walked around Tampiness Mall and Century Square looking at clothes and shoes before TKM headed for home, and I for SIM. The bus ride was a solid 2 hour ordeal. Had to change buses but my bum still went to sleep, so did I. Thank God I did not miss my stops.
Sian Li and Jill announced the results of the grading to the club after the session of kicks.
Speaking of kicks, I partnered Yu Biao for that session and he kicked my right hand and whacked my left wrist. I think the damage is worse than the time Kelvin did the same thing to my hands… *big ouch*
Kovan training was a small group, but the senior colour belts had something extra.
A coach from China came down and taught us some moves. Namely: 360s 720s and some belt moves. Damn cool and I can’t wait to do them again!
Taught Fulin pal-jung in preparation for his grading which will be in January.
I am still in the process of getting my koriyo right… I learn until step 9 and I get stuck… argh~!
I will press on! I shall prevail! With God’s help I shall! Yes! I will!
KORIYO HERE I COME!!!!
Woohooo~
-bounces off the walls in glee-

Irritating thing of today: I was late for Macro Lecture! AGAIN! X.xlll
Sian diao! Why?! Because I missed the bus! Shesh… I will get out of the house earlier next week. I promise!
Macro was fun… oddly enough; I am looking forward to revising my notes from all my lectures… heehee… I am behind time anyway so I guess this is a very good thing.
Went home with Long Jie and bought dinner at the same time. Ate in record time, after which I made for work. Did some revision while I was there, but not enough… still have much to do…
The joy of the Lord is my strength!


Ch5 played this song for the Shooting Stars trailer… its catchy xia… heh

Black Eyed Peas – Don’t Lie

[WILL]
Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry
Hey, baby my nose is getting big
I noticed it be growing when I been telling them fibs
Now you say your trust's getting weaker
Probably coz my lies just started getting deeper
And the reason for my confession is that I learn my lesson
And I really think you ought to know the truth
Because I lied and I cheated and I lied a little more
But after I did it I don't know what I did it for
I admit that I have been a little immature
Fucking with your heart like I was the predator
In my book of lies I was the editor
And the author
I forged my signature
And now I apologise for what I did to you
Cos what you did to me I did to you

[FERGIE]
No,no, no, no baby, no, no, no, no don't lie
No, no, no, no, yeah, you know, know, know, know, you gotta try
What you gonna do when it all comes out
When I really see you & what you're all about

No, no, no baby, no, no, no, no don't lie
Yeah, you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, you gotta try

[APL]
She said I'm leaving
Cos she can't take the pain
It's hard to continue this love it ain't the same
Can't forget the things that I've done inside her brain
Too many lies committed too many games
She feeling like a fool getting on the last train
Trying to maintain but the feeling won't change
I'm sorry for the things that I've done and what I became
Caught up in living my life in the fast lane
Blinded by lights, cameras, you know the fame
I don't know the reason why I did these things

[APL and FERGIE]
And I lie and I lie and I lie and I lie
And now our emotions are drained
Cos I lie and I lie and a little lie lie
And now your emotions are drained

[FERGIE]
No, no, no, no baby, no, no, no, no don't lie (no, don't you lie)
No, no, no, no, yeah, you know, know, know, know, you gotta try (got to try, got to try)
What you gonna do when it all comes out (what you gonna do baby)
When I really see you & what you're all about
Nonono babe, no, no, no, no don't lie
Because you know, you know, you know, you know, you know, gotta try

Ooh ooh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ba da ba da ba da ba da badabada

[TABOO]
Yo, I'm lying to my girl
Even though I love her
And she all in my world
I give her all my attention and diamonds & pearls
She's the one who makes me feel on top of the world
Still I lie to my girl, I do it

[APL and FERGIE]
And I lie and I lie and I lie till there's no turning back
I don't know why, (and I lie and I lie till I don't know who I am)


Still can recall the time in secondary school when I was crazy about this song… I printed out the whole lyrics sheet and pasted it behind my diary. Would look at it during class and hum the tune all day long…

Sarah Mclachlan - I will remember you

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories


This song goes hand in hand with my memories of Building a Mystery. If, and when, Sarah Mclachlan comes out with a greatest hits album, this song has to be inside!

Sarah Mclachlan - Adia

Adia I do believe I failed you
Adia I know I let you down
Don’t you know I tried so hard
To love you in my way
It’s easy let it go...
Adia I’m empty since you left me
Trying to find a way to carry on
I search myself and everyone
To see where we went wrong
’cause there’s no one left to finger
There’s no one here to blame
There’s no one left to talk to, honey
And there ain’t no one to buy our innocence
’cause we are born innocent
Believe me adia, we are still innocent
It’s easy, we all falter
Does it matter?
Adia I thought that we could make it
But I know I can’t change the way you feel
I leave you with your misery
A friend who won’t betray
I pull you from your tower
I take away your pain
And show you all the beauty you possess
If you’d only let yourself believe that
We are born innocent
Believe me adia, we are still innocent
It’s easy, we all falter, does it matter?
Believe me adia, we are still innocent
’cause we are born innocent
Adia we are still innocent
It’s easy, we all falter ... but does it matter?


Adelyn sent me the Kermit the frog version a few years ago. This song is sweet and innocent and some what sad.
Adelyn! You still got the song with you? Send to me again can? I lost it when the computer died on me…

Sarah Mclachlan – Rainbow Connection

Why are there so many songs about rainbows
and what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,
and rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some choose to believe it.
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me.

Who said that every wish would be heard
and answered when wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that and someone believed it.
Look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us star gazing
and what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me.

All of us under its spell. We know that it's probably magic.

Have you been half asleep and have you heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name.
Is this the sweet sound that called the young sailors.
The voice might be one and the same.
I've heard it too many times to ignore it.
It's something that I'm supposed to be.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me.


Fallenskies: " 'wake me up when september ends'? how coincidental. i was just strumming that song. hope you pass your next test. $52.50 a pop isn't funny."
Hah… October is here… let’s find a song about this month! :)
Thanks!
Yeah, my heart is still hurting from the cost of the test… so I have to make sure I am very confident for the next time I decide to take a boat out at sea.

God knows what tomorrow holds…
-hugs-
^-^

I enjoy boating but not the sea...

Tell the truth and shame the devil.
The beginning of wisdom is to call things by their right names.
The best advice is found on the pillow.
The best thing about a man is his dog.
The big thieves hang the little ones.

HAPPY CHILDREN’S DAY TO EVERYONE!!!!
Hope you guys had a good time. ;D

As I mentioned in the previous post, I took my boat handling test today.
Result?
Veto Factor right away ala Failed.

Honesty, I find that my experience today has been very surreal and if not for God protecting me, I think I would be in hospital right now instead of typing in front of my computer…
Here’s what happened…

Left home, at 11.35am odd, to take a bus to NUS in order to walk to the testing venue. I’ve learn through trial and error that taking that route is a heck of a lot cheaper, albeit taking a very long time, hence my leaving home so early when the test was supposed to start at 1.30pm.
Reach the NUS terminal at 12.40pm when by my initial calculations, I though I was going to be late. Since I was so early, I took my time to walk to the testing site. Bought a sluppee for the walk in. :)
Reached the venue in record time, explored the place and sat down to talk to Ben, who was there earlier than me.
We talked about the test and spoke briefly about our backgrounds in relation to why we were taking power boating in the first place.
He apparently has not driven in about a month and works for Singapore Airlines.
Cool job as a pilot man!
Get to travel all over the globe, see the countries and what not. But according to him, doing that frequently takes all the joy out of flying and traveling. I guess I would have to agree with that to a certain extent. One man’s meat is another’s poison and a job/work is not a job/work unless you dislike it. Right?

Around 1pm, more people started showing up. At 1.30m, an examiner came to the place were all waiting at and told us what was going to be in store for us during the test. He also took our attendance and told us the dos and don’ts.
I sort of had a hard time understanding what he was saying because he was mumbling most of the time… I am to blame as well, because I was rather blur most of the time … oppz…
Anyway, the fun thing was that I got paired up with Ben.

Then, things started going down hill...
I was told by our tester, who was the guy giving the instructions that I was going to be the first one to be tested.
Went down to the boat, did all the pre-departure checks and got ready to unberth the boat.
For some tingly reason, the examiner kept asking me certain questions and me being the blur one, did not really understand what the heck was going on…
In the process of my trying to unberth the boat, I almost crashed the boat into the break-water area and the two docks on either side of the berthing area.
The examiner had to take the helm from me and get the boat out of that mess.
If and when an examiner does that, *ding-ding* Sorry please come back and try again another day.
I was sure that was the part that vetoed me.
The examiner turned to me and said, “Sharon Tay, you have failed.”
-.-lll
But he went on to say that I had already failed before leaving the dock. Shesh~
I asked him to tell me what went wrong, but he said that we would have to wait till we got back to the centre before he would tell me my mistakes. In the mean time, I would have a very expensive practice session. Oh well… say bye bye to $52.20 and please make another trip to Singapore Poly to reapply for your handling test… o.olll

As part of my expensive practice, I did an exercise of man-over-board, berthing and steering.
I totally whacked out that the MOB because I din managed to get the life-buoy on both attempts… the darn thing kept drifting away from the boat…
I struck out even more on the berthing attempt.
Almost fell into the water while trying to tie the boat to the dock. The examiner had to pull me back into the boat.
I, being me, spent most of the time laughing.

Ben took over once the boat was secured by the examiner.
For a guy who has not driven for a month or so, he drives pretty well and made very few mistakes. Successful in retrieving the MOB, and in berthing, although he had to do it twice. Once we were back at the dock, the examiner told us to wait for him on land so that he could continue with the oral portion of the test.

While waiting on land, we talked to other people who were going to take their tests. These people were either waiting for their turn or were very early for their 3.30pm slot.
We kinda bitched about the things that went on during the test to the other people and told them the crazy things that happened.

Took a while before the examiner got back form the second group he was testing.
We all trouped to the air-con room for the oral part of the test. In my case, this was the time where the guy was supposed to tell me where I screwed up.
According to him:
I did not check all the bilges (only checked 3 out of 5 of them)
I did not check the boat’s license properly (SZ and SZH are very important depending on the situation)
I bumped the boat twice while trying to unberth it (I had no idea that happened in the first place… but that was my auto-fail reason)
Not being able to save the MOB would also have made me a goner if not for the first veto. But he said that I was doing fine if not for the tides…
The inability to berth the boat and secure it to the dock was another thing.
He also said that I need to be very conscientious of what I am doing… have to plan thoroughly what I want to do before going onto the boat.
The examiner’s needing to pull me back into the boat is the one action which prevented me from ending up in hospital. Had he not acted, I would have fallen into the water in between the dock and the boat. With the waters being that choppy, my head would have collided with the dock and the boat would have swung in to whack my skull as well.
God was there with me the whole time; He kept me from freaking out and probably making things worse.
Amazingly, I found the whole situation extremely silly at that time and I help laughing.
So after telling me all my mistakes and then some, the examiner sent me out and it was Ben’s turn to be tested.
Congrats to him on his passing the exam.

Now I know all my mistakes and I have to remember not to make them again the next time I take the test.

As I said earlier, it’s very unbelievable that I went through all those things today… to me anyway~ it is upon reflection of the whole unfolding of the test that I realize how blessed I am. Thank You God!

I will definitely take the test again, but I will make sure I take it after the wedding and after I have had more practice… haha... don wanna repeat what took place today… no siree~ I guess it was the water that did me ultimately did me in. Have to take the way the water is moving into consideration.
Mum and TKM asked me to drop the whole thing, but I reckon that taking that course of action would mean wasting even more money. In any case, I am not a quiter. So there! :P *pppwwwwhhheeeeebbbb!*
Ben kept commenting that I am young and have a lot of time ahead to do so many things… haha…

I have a feeling that it will be some time before the examiner forgets my name… haha… half way through, he started calling me by my first name… haha…

Hung around to find out how some of the others did for the test, then made my way back to the NUS terminal to take the long bus ride back to China, I mean home… when the bus passed the SIM bus stop, I saw Yang Mui waiting for the bus… so qiao… heh~

Currently feeling the effects of boating at sea… swaying to and fro while sitting here and looking at the computer screen… hah… but it’s not as bad as the last time… haha…


Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends


Am I awake yet?
Have to study ah~
Not enough sleep ah!

Time to hit the sack.
Speaking of my bed… I dreamt I was taking the test last night, and it was hilarious… the boat was able to go on land, and we even drove into the desert!
See what stress/ anxiety can do to a person?!
Hahaha… ok guys, enjoy the rest of the weekend~
One more for the road: Happy Children's Day!!!!
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